Sunday, August 10, 2014


been listening to some songs that i used to listen to when i was a teenager. oh how quickly time passed by. everytime i do, it brings me back to the days where everything was easy, and fun. but then again maybe i should have woken up from my oblivious dream and start living in the real world. keep my feet on the ground so that i wouldnt be flying to high in the sky. at times i feel like i wanna go back. i would've been different, i would've been better but then again maybe it wont change a thing or probably be worst. there are a lots of things i want to change but then again i dont. i am now at a stand still. dont know where to go from here anymore. i am living life like how i drive at night, on a lonely street without a headlight. just winging my way out hoping i get home safe and sound. but its not easy to get home cuz i am constantly distracted by winding paths, traffic and ext.  it might be the death of me or it could be my key to getting to my destination. its all in my hands. if i wanna stay in the past i would but i wanna move forward so i will.

Thursday, July 24, 2014

first time....

bought myself a couple of cook books to keep my interest in food alive since i am basically tired of everything else. with all the shit that is going on in the world only food could get my mind of things.
also to keep me busy since i've got nothing much to do lately.
i've tried making and baking a lo of things before except for pizza. found a couple of recipes on the book that looked really tasty and easy. so i gave it a try.
i've always shy away from making pizza or anything that involves yeast. i had never got it right before. but luckily this time around it turned out well. 
i am quite pleased with how it turned out. act pretty proud of myself, even my brother (my biggest and cruelest critic) loved it. it wasnt exactly dominos worthy, its kinda bread-y then i expected it to be but yea at least its something.
will be trying out more recipes soon. it will sorta be a new segment in my blog, trying out recipe book. 
have a nice day, see u in my next post:>

Wednesday, May 14, 2014


its wednesday already? god! times flies so fast. seems like it was yesterday that my brother got married to his long time girlfriend. it acutally happened last week tho on a friday night.
while most people are out partying the night away, we were in Ipoh preparing ourselves for my brother's akad nikah at his now wife- family house.

my brother went there with his friend before us, cuz we live saparately. my parents and i had to travel all the way from alor gajah. im not sure how long the journey was, i was too busy snoozing in the back seat.but it must have been more than 3 hours maybe. i dont know.
the seccond we got close to Perak the whole scenery was very different. the mountians and hills are so majestic, i mean we have those in alor gajah too but here its kinda different i think.
to be honest i was impressed by the neighborhood there in Ipoh. if someone would have abducted me and left me there for some reason and i had to call my family to pick me, i would think that i am in Petaling Jaya or smtg, or somewhere around kl. but quite honestly it different from KL but better in my opinion. i would really love to live there. i especially love the types of houses they mainly have there. they have this kinda like old vintage British house designs which i like and it seems so clam and private unlike kl. haha and i like the fact that its not as isolated as alor gajah. even though its not a big city but its the kinda place i wanna be in. very chill but still have some of the things that the big city has to offer.
once we got to our home stay, everything got hectic there and then. we had to setup the gifts and everyone had to get ready in house that has 3 bathrooms when there are more than 10 people in it. we didnt had much time to rest. then at about 8 PM we went to my sister in law's family home for the akad nikah ceremony
traditionally people will do it in the afternoon but we did it after isyak prayers.
met my brother there i could tell that he was both nervous and happy.
the whole time he was smiling. of course he would, cuz his gonna make the love of his life as his wife in a few minutes. when it was official i think he cried-tears of happiness. when he did, i dried too! my brother and i are close. i was even close to his wife even before they got married. we would go on double dates together, hang out, and stuff like that. i actually really miss hanging out with them.
i still remember the first time my brother introduced her to me. we were in johor at our aunt's house on vacation. then showed me her picture on Friendster (back when it was famous LOL) and he asked me, isnt she pretty? i like her. i wanna meet her and stuff like that.
then before i knew it they were together. cant remeber how many years they had been together, they had their ups and down, but look at them now!
i love them together, they compliment each other. she is very bubbly and cute so was my brother. honestly they are the most cutest couple i have ever met in my life. every time i took my friends to meet them, they will always be like "OMG i am so jealous of their relationship, they are so cute!".
for some reason i always knew they will end up together. they just seem so perfect for each other. their relationship gave me hope that there is such a thing called true love. it wont be perfect, there will be up and downs but if you power through love will eventually bring you together no matter what. i wish they knew how much i love them n how much their relationship means to me. i think i've been with them through the best and the worst sometimes but now look at them. awwwwww brings me to tears!!! FEEL TRIP!!! ~T.T~
i even cried because i am actually witnessing for myself a ceremony to bond two people together, that will be life changing. witnessing two people making a huge step in their lifes to hold an agreement, and so much more. a lot of things was going through my mind. like am i gonna fair with this when my time comes, will i be ready, am i willing to sacrifice my Independence or will it matter, and ext. i dont know, but for now im just gonna bask in the joy of this union.  
me and my lil bro

so the next day was the Sanding ceremony which was held in there local multi purpose hall.
it was a very simple and intimate ceremony. mostly when people get married they will throw huge parties, invite hundreds of people and stuff like that. but i love the fact that this ceremony was small and simple. only close relatives and friends were brother had a joint ceremony together with his wife's older brother because they both got married on a close date so they decided to combine ceremony. 
awwwwww :'D

the joy was obvious on both of their faces. i am so happy for them.i cant wait for another ceremony here in out home. his wife and i had a sisterly bond before but now we are actually family.
happy honemoon you guys!

vanity time! self potrait! haha

Monday, April 7, 2014

just making bubbles in the woods no big deal

I saw getting some things from Mr.DIY, and I this huge bubble loop on the top shelf and I just gotta buy it. Spend at least an hour messing around with it! odd how i found so calmness and so much happiness in doing something pointless like this.
is it spring here in melaka? cuz I am seeing flowers blooming all over! to my surprise this magnificent creation in blooming in my yard! it was so beautiful! I almost cant believe that are actually growing on my yard. God knows how unwell kept it is lately. amazing how, Beautiful things could still bloom on a place that seems so hopeless.
also saw this spider web, isnt it wonderful!

Monday, March 24, 2014

good company, good life

i've noticed that i had been 3 months since my last post.
been super busy nowadays and been around great friends making great memories that i dont feel the need to even turn on my computer as often as i used to, especially now that im always busy with studies, internship, friends, relationships and exct. well you know what they say, you know you are having a great time when u dont even have time to post on internet about it. am i right? haha. 
this semester will hopefully be my last in MMU, so im using all of the time i have left here to be with people i love and care about. it is kinda sad that most of them i just got to know recently and had become such a huge part in my life, and i had to leave. but later is better then never.
i wish i met them all sooner but what to do, all i can do is to spend as much time with them.
my first few semester in university i was quite a loner. i only hang out with a few friends but i never actually got to know a lot of people because i was afraid that i wont be accepted because i was different, i was always with my housemates who knows me well and stuck with them because it made me feel secured, because i didnt have to worry about acceptance also because i have a huge trust issue with people.they were great, but being that way weren't really healthy for me.i became really judgmental of people and of myself, and i was always awkward around people . i never felt like i belonged, and never found people i could actually relate to and all of that changed when i knew my friends from MILE (an English club at my uni) from them i got to know a lot of people from various backgrounds, race and religion. it opened my eyes to not judge people through my own perception without getting to know them.
to be honest when i accept people, and became more positive on my perception of people, i learn how to accept myself more and i am not afraid anymore.
these past year of my life knowing the people that ive known today had made my life better in a way.
okay now lets skip the whole emo session here n get to the pictures haha.

i just wanna say how grateful i am to have finally found friends that are there for me and accepted me as i am no matter how crazy or weird i get.
your friendship mean a lot to me, i wouldn't get to see any of you as often as i do before but i want you all to know that i appreciate our friendship, i love you all so much hopefully you wont forget me when im gone, and hope i was as much of a great friend to you as you are to me.